I'm due with my second one in a week's time (!) and rest assured you're not alone. In fact, I'm still not 100% that I really, really want a second one and I haven't started being really excited yet either.
Like you, I'm very worried how my first will take it. I really just want him to be happy and loved and will we be able to do that to the same extent with another in tow, dividing our time?
I've had a terrible pregnancy, which hasn't helped. It's been hard on our lives and our relationship. Also, there's been so much 'admin'; sorting out a new room, new childcare arrangements (had to say goodbye to our regular and much-loved nanny due to costs), I know I'll be lonely on mat leave etc.
HOWEVER, I also take solace in the fact that I feel pretty certain, as other posters are saying, that I'll bond with the second as much as the first. SO far, I haven't heard anyone who's regretted any
of their children
. I'm also not looking forward to nappies again, night waking, bottles etc, but I always bear in mind that actually it's such a short period of time - I know that now that my second one is 3 years old.
I'm looking forward to holding her, because only at that moment will it turn from pregnancy pains/worrying/diy to the baby room and become apparent why I've endured this, because in my heart and head I know that of course I'll love her as much as my first! From that day and until I die!